Saturday, October 15, 2005
Happy Birthday
I should be doing my work now. My to-do list has never been longer since term started. Or perhaps I have just been lazing too much. Whatever the case, I guess this is what I felt like doing right now, even if it meant that I am going to waste more of my already limited time.
The time now is 11.39 pm, and I guess I will be 23 by the time I’m finished with this entry. Birthdays used to be exciting and interesting, with lots of colours and fun and a whole load of friends and relatives singing you a birthday song. But as time goes by, I felt that that sort of birthdays are fading away from my life. Yet, it didn’t seem to matter to me. I seriously don’t mind not having birthday parties or having no presents for my birthday. Because after all the fun and joy is over, I will still be me, nothing has changed from yesterday.
I believe that growing up is a continual process, you got to slowly learn about life as you grow old. Birthdays are just a marker for the turn of a year since you were born. The true birthdays are the days in your life where you learn something about yourself.
Now, that doesn’t mean that I don’t like to be cared about. I bet everyone hopes to be cared by the people around them. So if you see me today and happen to know that it's my birthday, do say “Happy Birthday” to me, I hope to be cared by you. But save the money and the effort to buy presents and stuff, because it is not really important. Why waste the money on something that I might not like. Sometimes, even the one whom I love gets it wrong. Getting a gift for a person is an extremely delicate process, which I will be happy to share here but not today. If you really insist, then just give me the money, at least that’s efficient economically and also maximizes utility….haha
Good, now I sound like I have many, many friends waiting to give me presents and stuffs but on the contrary, not many people know when my birthday is. Probably, in the first place, I didn’t think it was important for them to know anyway.
This year will be a very lonely birthday for me because the one whom I love is away and will not be here with me. This kind of made me feel uneasy and odd as she was here beside me on this day for the past seven years. Thus, I shall occupy my time with my to-do list so that I can avoid this feeling of emptiness.
In the meantime, just to show that I care for myself……
Happy Birthday, Dao!
The time now is 11.39 pm, and I guess I will be 23 by the time I’m finished with this entry. Birthdays used to be exciting and interesting, with lots of colours and fun and a whole load of friends and relatives singing you a birthday song. But as time goes by, I felt that that sort of birthdays are fading away from my life. Yet, it didn’t seem to matter to me. I seriously don’t mind not having birthday parties or having no presents for my birthday. Because after all the fun and joy is over, I will still be me, nothing has changed from yesterday.
I believe that growing up is a continual process, you got to slowly learn about life as you grow old. Birthdays are just a marker for the turn of a year since you were born. The true birthdays are the days in your life where you learn something about yourself.
Now, that doesn’t mean that I don’t like to be cared about. I bet everyone hopes to be cared by the people around them. So if you see me today and happen to know that it's my birthday, do say “Happy Birthday” to me, I hope to be cared by you. But save the money and the effort to buy presents and stuff, because it is not really important. Why waste the money on something that I might not like. Sometimes, even the one whom I love gets it wrong. Getting a gift for a person is an extremely delicate process, which I will be happy to share here but not today. If you really insist, then just give me the money, at least that’s efficient economically and also maximizes utility….haha
Good, now I sound like I have many, many friends waiting to give me presents and stuffs but on the contrary, not many people know when my birthday is. Probably, in the first place, I didn’t think it was important for them to know anyway.
This year will be a very lonely birthday for me because the one whom I love is away and will not be here with me. This kind of made me feel uneasy and odd as she was here beside me on this day for the past seven years. Thus, I shall occupy my time with my to-do list so that I can avoid this feeling of emptiness.
In the meantime, just to show that I care for myself……
Happy Birthday, Dao!
# posted by Dao : 12:21 am
