InBetween Breaths

Today, I had a couple of gifts to carry home from the one whom I love’s place, namely, a box of chewing gums and a new Nike shirt from the one whom I love who just came back from a trip to KL. Thus, Auntie was really nice and wanted to find me a carrier seeing me having my hands full with an umbrella, a suitcase, a bottle of liang teh (from Auntie as well, which was really nice and sweet) and of course, my two presents from the one whom I love. After searching through high and low, finally she found the perfect sized carrier for these 2 items. Immediately, I felt weird but I thought well, I can manage.
  
Thus, I snapped up my stuffs and proceed to leave. As I walk towards the elevator, my footsteps started to go faster without any apparent reason. I just wanted to reach the car as quickly as possible. Of course, I met some people on the way, I didn’t dare to look them in the face and I quicken my pace even more, finally as I opened my car door and sat in nice and proper, I heaved a sigh of relief. I didn’t think it was that tough until I was left alone walking with it. It was nothing really, just a nice paper bag which is white on one side and pink on the other, probably it’s the word written that freaked me out, it spelled m-i-n-o-s-h-e. MINOSHE!!!!

If this was a list of what people think when a guy carries a Minoshe hand carrier….  

An old man will think, hai yo…so xia suay…
An old woman will think, hai yo…chee ko pek
A young man will think, hmm…who’s that for? Loser!!
A young woman will think, eeee…disgusting!!

I was probably once a disgust, twice xia suay and thrice a chee ko pek. Thankfully, I missed out on being five times a loser when I managed to dash into my house before a group of Caucasian boys were walking by. I could hear them muttering from afar before I decided to take off…phew…what a walk to remember…or perhaps not.

This friend of mine, he’s a player I guess, he’s the one who went in for the kill when the rightful man was away, he’s not the most handsome of all, he’s the kind of f**k**g b**t**d I was talking about, he’s the one who probably deserves to never find the one true love, he’s the one whom my other friend describes as a “sneaky b**t**d” (man, what an aptly term), he’s still my friend at the moment but as I complete this line, he became this guy I knew.

Well, I guess I’m too nice to totally pull him out of my social circle, moreover, I would have been a bit too nosey for all these reactions on a script which I have no part to play. Well, let’s just say we will remain as acquaintance but what cumulated my feelings towards him was during a chat between a few guy friends. We were talking about some girl whom I forgot who it was exactly, then someone mentioned that she has a boyfriend. Then came that statement that stamped his personality and summed up what we thought of him in just 5 words, “Boyfriend is not a problem.” This truly epitomized his character as he said it while he was so into the conversation and so naturally.

I don’t hate him, I don’t dislike him. We all have our own ways of thinking and there’s the way he thinks I guess. But to all the boyfriends out there, please treasure your girlfriends before this guy I knew comes along and to all the girls out there, I will advise you to stay far, far away, so that you wouldn’t get hurt in anyway, now or in future.

The past few weeks have left me without time to even catch my breath. With 3 out of 4 modules without a final paper, it can only mean that projects are everything when it comes to getting the much desired A grade. However, even as I finally accomplished all 3 projects with more than 100% effort, I have learnt that efforts don’t earn you an A but rather whether you did the right thing. Like my Prof says, it’s better to do a simple thing right than to do a difficult thing wrong. So, even as I tortured myself with lesser sleep, lesser slacking, lesser time with the one whom I love (whom I will like to apologise to here. Sorry Darlz!) and obviously NO blogging, I guess a lot still depended on whether I did the things I did correctly, rather than throwing heaps of unnecessary information at my professors. So now, what lies ahead is an ethics exam next week, which I hope I can remember all the right things and I literally mean the right things.

Now that I have some time to slack again, I’m back in business. So I guess this means that in future, if there are no entries for a very long time, it probably means I’m damn busy rather than that I’m slacking off. It’s ironic that it’s the times when I’m slacking that you get to see a new entry...haha…

Sometimes it makes me wonder why there are so many love triangles nowadays. Every now and then, I get to hear some weird love stories on YES933. It frequently speaks of a sad love story between a couple how they got together and then under certain circumstances, were not able to make it through. All these words really touch the heart but wait till you listen further and realize that the one that she loves most is actually attached or worse so, married. Then, you will be like…ok, so be it. But at the end of the story, she proudly announces that even though she knows that its not going to work out, she still pledges her love for him and that it will never change. This is the point that I felt truly disturbed.

Now and then, we see such cases all around us. I mean of course love is all about the right feelings and chemistry and stuffs like that. But seriously, if you are attached to a man or woman at the moment, will you want your partner to build up a relationship of immense feelings and chemistry with any guy or gal but not you?! That just seems politically incorrect. I believe that if a couple are so deeply in love with each other, there seem to be no reason for either one to stray because under my (DECC) Dating Ethical Code of Conduct, such behaviour is unacceptable. And I truly believe everyone should adhere to this Code of Conduct, I don’t care if you disagree because this is my territory and I’m the loudest here. If you can’t afford to even keep to this rule, you don’t deserve to be in a relationship. You are better off being single, or in an earlier entry, you are merely a player. You do not take relationships seriously, you are irresponsible and you are immature.

I guess it’s pretty hard for most guys out there because there are just far too many temptations out there and it’s hard not to grab one on impulse. But can you just control that itch and hide that beastly being in you and give it some careful thought before you make up your mind to dump your current girlfriend for this new bitch on the block? There are also guys out there who manage to break off a relationship by convincing themselves that the current girlfriend is not the one that they truly love. There is no chemistry or there is no more love between them…blah..blah..blah….all I can say is….BULLSHIT! Because about 80% or even more of the time, you were probably thinking of another girl when you made the decision. And this violates the DECC as well. Perhaps I should set a cutoff point at this time…..hmmm…how about 6 months? Thus, from now on, the rule states that once you initiate to end a relationship, you are not eligible to find another girl/guy in the next 6 months. This is to make sure that you didn’t make that decision on impulse for another girl…even if you did on impulse, you have to wait 6 months. Period.

Now, we shall move on to the external factors which cause a love triangle. We all know that sometimes it’s not the two parties that created this mess but rather a freaking stranger who turned friend overnight and turned lover after two. I guess if the couple were strong enough to resist any of these external forces, then there is no reason for these people to have a chance but that aside, I will like to focus on these people who know that people are attached and yet made a move. What in the hell were you thinking? True enough, falling in love with someone is inevitable and uncontrollable but what makes you think that entitles you to make a move for the girl? She has a boyfriend, for god sake; can’t you just let them try to work things out? Surely, if you are so strong in your belief that she is the one for you, you can wait, right? And what makes you think that you are the one for her?

I know it’s really tough to pull yourself out of the trap but honestly, if you know that she has a boyfriend, please refrain from letting your feelings get carried away. You should have stopped when you saw the trap, not walk right into it. To these people, I hope you will be able to control yourself and not make a move for the girl. There are seriously a lot of options out there, all you need to do is turn your attention away before you sink deeper. I do know of people who are wary of such details and are able to control themselves out of respect not just for that relationship but more importantly, for yourself. To these people, I applaud them and wish them all the best in their future dates.

However, there are another group of people who just cannot control themselves, regardless of whether the girl has a boyfriend or not, they just think that they are the biggest f**k around and can do as they please. This behaviour is totally condemned in the DECC! And if you are such a person, you are an asshole and you have totally no regards for a proper relationship! I hope that your girlfriends/boyfriends will always be snatched away from you and when you finally find your true love, he/she rejects you outright! You will be the biggest loser at the end of the race, you f**k**g b**t**d! Pardon my language, I couldn’t control myself either.